The last petal fell and I never looked back. And I know you need me, but you don’t see my face. You only want and want. And you say you can tell when I’m lying – you can’t – but here it is: I don’t love you, I could never love you. You are empty. […]
The days are different now. I feel the fire so deeply. Empty of grief, I sing.
I have loved you so much. Even after the first crack, until the last tear. It was Christmas eve again, and I felt the distance, but I didn’t feel you. Emptiness. Emptiness. The day I lost you forever. The day I looked through your eyes and I did not see us. Not us together. I […]
And I might have been Persephone, but don’t fool yourself Hades. I took the pomegranate seeds willingly, I let you make me queen. I was never helpless. I was never yours.
I’m the girl that fell in love with a boy with dark moon eyes. Pain-filled eyes that leave me helpless. Breathless I want to sink into the black. I’m just a girl, with the kind of longing that breeds eternal sadness. Lilies and loneliness and teardrops. I’m the girl that loved you so much. But […]
But deep down I know the truth. I know the sun will have to set. I know it would have to die. I know Hades would climb up from the depths of the earth and he would drag me down to the darkness. Always. He always comes and I always fall.
I know pain, but I also know hope.
Life’s so fleeting. Our dreams caught in gossamer webs, in strings of time. Tell me, when did we forget? Tell me, do you love her like you love me?
All the tears I didn’t let fall, are now threatening to drown me. The sky is stained and I know you think I’ll be here forever, but I won’t wait forever. I can’t. They say it won’t be raining forever, that the sun will shine again, but tomorrow is just a word and promises are […]
I wish we met in a different timeline. I wish we were happy, the way we will never be.
This pain, this piercing, acidic pain; this pain I have to carry with me, that only bleeding can distract me from it, this pain – a thousand suns burning inside me – I never asked for it. And I tried to forget, but your voice echoes in my head. A constant longing. A constant noose […]
I’m the girl with fires behind my eyes and lighting in my head that makes me unable to concentrate, unable to stop moving, to stop the noise in my head, the voices that aren’t mine. A million thoughts at once – confusion overcomes me. I cry moonlight, I’m burning up, I want to touch the […]
I made you into ashes, I do not love you you filled the void with empty the silence, the silence that frayed my dreams after the fire you did not come back for me I’m not the moon for you I don’t love you, I made you into ashes You can’t destroy me anymore: I […]
“I came back for you. I will always come back for you.”
Darling, for two years I thought believing was enough. Just breathing… And I waited. But I only saw though veils. I did see you but it meant nothing. I think we were just killing time, you and me, and faith is overrated. I think I can see clearer now, now that the fog of our […]
Who are you? I’m a girl; brown hair, green eyes, pale skin. A girl writing wor(l)ds and code and dreams. What are you afraid of? I’m afraid of black holes pulling me in. I’m afraid of the emptiness, the utter despair, the inability to reach you. & I’m afraid of those doorless white rooms, […]
“Please stand up and fight against the sickness deep inside You are much too young to die ” – The Sickness, Terminal Choice {This is for all the people out there, who are fighting chronic illnesses.} Years and years lost… I was so young, diagnosed with something so horrible. A life tainted with grief and […]
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language And next year’s words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning.” ― T.S. Eliot 2016 was loss and apathy and too much distance from the stars. It was heartache, and sadness, and a reconsideration of things. In January, I […]
I’ve always collected things. Gifts and concert tickets and sea-shells and old books. And sad things. Beautiful, fragile things that are so ephemeral. I’ve tried to preserve them, to suspend them in time. Teardrops, and dream-remnants and memories of happier times. Melancholy and nostalgia. Clocks that only strike thirteen and mirrors with broken reflections. Pressed […]
Underwater, I can still dream. Oxygen gets low, and starlight’s lost, but I can still dream. It feels like inhaling a storm, a beautiful, almost suffocating star-implosion inside of me. It’s almost February now. Silent waves crush on my skin and every secret kept in the sea, is now flowing inside of me. I drift, […]
I am the girl who sleeps at 4:00am and wakes at noon, I’m the girl with the green eyes and numb hands; typing words as oxygen. I’ve survived black holes and car crushes and too-many-endings. I’ve survived. I’m just a girl, too young to drown, too old to believe anymore. It doesn’t matter what the […]
I can understand your pain. I can’t understand your hate. Now. Then. I did love you. Then. Not now. We didn’t deserve this.
There’s a boy with laughter lines around his dark eyes. He gave me an orange blossom once. And I thought I was beautiful, just for a second there. But he never followed me when I left. Silence fell and it got cold again. And I tried to hold on as tightly as I could. But […]
“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul – and sings the tunes without the words – and never stops at all.” – Emily Dickinson There is a girl who cannot sing. Her skin is made of porcelain, yet her bones can’t be broken. Her eyes contain the sea, a grave […]
I have always been one of the delicate-like girls with bones made of moonstone. I’ve been one of the girls who dream and drink too much, who write poetry on them, who try to carve out the pain, the emptiness, the darkness. I have been the girl with the empty eyes and aching lungs. I […]